Post 57 ~ Desaru Johor

Desaru ~ I'm been hearing this name for many times since I had moved to Johor. Unfortunately there are always unpredictable consequences which stopping us to visit this place.

Finally, we managed to squeeze out a Saturday for a day trip over there. It wasn't near for us to depart from Kulai, it was approximately 90km by car.




Our gadgets of the trip




Happily having my own selfie in the car

We had no specified programme planned for this day trip. Just having our relaxed drive around the area, and exploring any spots for photography. Hoping that we can have some nice landscape pictures for collection.

Of course I won't forget my little Peter as well. We dropped by the beach, fish market, abandoned land and side of the expressway for sunset. Thanks so much for the beautify sunny weather on the day.






The beach with the 'rocks'




Very tiny and smooth sands

Looked like I was at the top of the mountain

Kiddos were busying with the sands

My little Peter was busy too

Haha.... wondering if hubby was taking pictures of the girls

Ops..... gotcha!!!

Thanks hubby for the beautiful picture of mine

 

What do you guys think about this picture?

I love this picture very much

Some one said this picture is great!

Lets run!!

He is COOL!



He is always my man

Getting ready for sun set

Sunset

Night screen during the golden hours

 

Went to Lotus Resort, knowing their facilities are not bad through. Thinking of having family gathering one day in the future.

Beautiful blue sky

You and Me

I will follow you

Thanks hubby for the nice trip on this beautiful Saturday. See, we both were getting so many beautiful pictures for the day.

At the end of the day, this is what we had. Hahahahahaha!!! Tanned skin!

Post 56 ~ Coincidence

It was just an coincidence, hubby and I came to Little Red Cube at Puteri Harbour. It was similar like Straits Quay, Penang. Restaurants, cafes and bistro, you may enjoy the food, while having the beautiful scenes of sailboats and emerald seas.


Picture taken from web

Unfortunately, we were there at the late hour. The sky is darkening with cloudy weather. I don't think I can have nice pictures on the scenes. I was discussing with hubby, may be next time, we can have nice meet up with friends over there.

After the sea scene, we were trying to walk towards Little Red Cube, we found a shop <Superhero>. It was quite interesting. It can be a fashion boutique, which selling clothing and accessories. It can be a café where you can grab a cup of coffee. It can be a mini museum with all the superhero collections. The best part was, everyone is allowed to take pictures inside the shop. That's the cool part!

 

 

 

This is the mini café I was mentioning inside the shop

When we were about to leave the shop, we saw something which was shocking us!!!

Let give it a GUESS!!! What was it?

Ta da da da!!! Hello Kitty Land! The place I'm stepping, was their accessory shop.

Never thought that Hello Kitty Land is just there only. We are always thinking Hello Kitty Land just next to LEGOLAND. And we were wrong.

Picture taken from web

Still remember, me and Jacq were so into cat characters. Hello Kitty is one of them.We were so excited that Hello Kitty Land was coming to Malaysia, we wish to plan a trip there someday. Let us have some warm up with some pictures ya....

Post 55 ~ Dropping by only... Kota Iskandar Johor

I am been here in Kulai for almost 5 months.

Time is cruel, it flies without our notice.

Frankly speaking, I have not much chance to explore Johor or cuti-cuti Johor even.
It been many times I asked hubby, "Lokong, any place can go lepak in Johor?"
Hubby will replied me with, "Nothing lor.... Just nothing special here lor..."

Hmmmm.... In fact, hubby not the first one who answered with nothing.
I did thrown the same question to my partner and HR personnel, who is local to make any recommendation.
What a disappointed feedback from locals, Johor really has nothing to explore.

Thank God. I have a hubby who is very much into photography.
Photographer loves to explore.
Photographer also loves to discover places where is good for his/her hobby.

And here we are on this lovely Saturday ~ Kota Iskandar.

As my habit, I used to Google the place before I actually there in person.
There are so many amazing pictures were shown at Google.
I was actually looking forward for the trip, hopefully to get some beautiful sunset pictures from there.

But, it was too early to be excited for the place.
As hubby told, it might be due to poor maintenance, environment and building structure wasn't nice as those days.

Hopefully what I witnessed with my eyes doesn't spoilt my pictures oh!



Cloudy evening

Sun set in HDR version

We were driving and going around the park.
Nothing was impressed, but we managed to capture the beautiful sunset.
I am still having my unprocessed sun setting pictures in my camera.
I am keep asking myself why?

Why I am still keeping my pictures unprocessed?
Why I still don't upload my pictures to FB?

It that a sign of losing interest on photography?

Part 54 ~ Passed

When I was writing this post, I am a confirmed staff for the company.
I am now entitled for 'precious' 12 days of Annual Leave.
I am also entitled for 'priceless' 16 days of Sick Leave.

I was having a private session with Mrs Manager.
She was announcing the 'good' news to me personally with the confirmation letter which was signed by my Mrs VP.

I really don't know how to describe my feeling when I was getting this news.
The feeling was quite complicated, it was mixture of everything.
I can say, this is the very first time, I was feeling nothing when I was being confirmed by a company I worked with.
I didn't feel happy or excited, or even satisfied or motivated.

During the private session, Mrs Manager was giving me a chance that our neighbour, Mr Claims Manager was offering me a post due to my working experience, as I know, their business is growing, and there is a big client on the way.

To be frank, I don't like Claims department.
The department is just too unfriendly to me as a outsider.

For the past 3 months, I was happily working with my partner and my SG colleagues.
At this moment, I don't feel like changing department is a good move for me.
Most important, I am actually applying job else where.
It won't serve any purpose if I decide to change department.

So..... right now.... I just sit back and wait... Wait for the call!

Post 53 ~ Trying to be busy over the weekend

It was a tough week, although workload still manageable, but psychologically and mentally was bad. It was torturing. I am so desperate for a distress programme or activity.

Being a newbie in the company which is still under probation period, it is super-duper difficult and I could say impossible for me to have vacation or holiday right now.

As my manager told me previous week, due to my Unpaid Leave application over the two months, I am under 'watch' list. My three month probation period will be due on 11th February 2015. Throughout her experiences in the company, there is no such thing as Probation Period Extension. Either you are failed or passed the probation period, no other chances will be given.

Meaning, I might be sacked from the company due to my so-called 'bad performance'. Those days I was taking Urgent Leaves due to mom had having bad health condition which really required someone to take care of her at home. How can I be cruel and leave my sick mom at home alone just because of my probation period?

May be I am not that fortunate to have other siblings / family members or rich enough to employ a maid / private nurse to look after her at home for her ADLs. But as I know, I have only ONE mom, no one can reply or duplicate her. If company is really that cold blooded, I think I won't mind to have sack from the company!

Anyhow, hubby managed to arrange some activities over the weekend. Still, I am 'allowing' him to go for his birding in the morning while I was having my morning walk with mom. During these period, those foot swollen (due to Gout attack and infection) and shoulder dislocation, we have to limit her mobility of her affected limbs. And I am glad that, mom has came out from it slowly. She was so happy to see the morning sun too.


Although we were slow, but doesn't matter, better than not walking at all.




You will be surprised to see all these beautiful stuffs during our walk.

I do believed, morning walk is good for us, especially to the elderly person. moving their stiff joints, getting fresh air, getting sun bath for Vitamin D.... etc. And I feel so good after the session.



Part 52 ~ Horsey in this Woody Goat Year 2015

As per fortune, 2014 isn't a good year for horsey like me. Of course, I wasn't that bad at the first half of the year while I was staying in KL. But good life doesn't last once I had moved to Kulai. Hubby always remind me that I'm no longer in KL anymore.

 

 

 

Social life, career life, daily routine life.... all dramatically changed. Career life really kills me almost everyday since jobs application starts. Included now I'm at my current company. People is 'shit', not well controlled by management, culture is bullshit! Nothing I like about my current company.

 

But I know, God always prepare something or someone for me when I in trouble. I have a good partner, she is understanding, helpful, kind and caring too. And also a young cute HR personnel. Sorry to say, it's really pulling me down all these while since I working here.

 

 

Emotion being down, dull, depressed, demotivated... I feel so sick when I go to office. Hubby became my victim, sorry dear. Seriously, I don't know how to handle all this bad emotion which happened at once.

 

I know hubby was quite worried about me since I had moved over. After consultation with his regular Feng Shui master, hubby bought me this little pinky. He told, this will avoid bad people surrounding me, meanwhile it will attract good relationship from family, friends, and boss which will bringing luck to me at work. I sincerely wish that all this will happen!

 

 

Dear God, I didn't meant that loosing trust or believe from you. I still believe God is always there for me, and He is always listen to my words. Anyhow, the little pink Rose Quartz is a 'ok' accessory for me to carry everyday, perhaps I will transform it to become a necklace one day.....

 

Still, I have to thank my hubby. Thank you so much. I know you are trying your best to make me feel good. I knew it. Just the matter of time. I will wait patiently.

 



Part 51 ~ Things are Not Right at all

From July 2014 till now January 2015,
things don't seem to be going smoothly.

As hubby said,
we must always look at the bright side,
but it is just something to cheer me up,
another hand, nothing was changed to be better.

I was jobless since I quit my previous job from PruBSN Takaful in KL.
I was hardly getting a job in Kulai and even JB.
They said I was over qualified.
They said they are just a small company.
They said they don't need a Assistant Manager for their small admin position.

Mom's health condition,
never be good from the time she moves over.
Getting weaker and weaker which lead to her shoulder dislocation.
Getting easier to fall sick.
Getting more frequent to have Gout attack.

Today, I was mentioning that Jacq will be travelling for her annual HK trip next week.
Hubby blaming himself that he was bringing me back luck since he had married me.
I lost my good career in KL,
I lost my good life in KL,
I lost all my friends in KL too.

To be frank, I am really not doing good here.
I hate Kulai, I hate JB, I hate Johor either.
I can't have good job here,
of course I won't have good income too.

Life in Johor is just suck!!!
People here is just unpredictable which can always cause me high blood pressure.
Traffic here is worst than KL, as majority of the drivers here are 'SAKAI"!

With all the bad conditions, I feel so tensioned!
Work, mom, house work, and everything.
I feel so irritated to see the house in a mess,
but hubby not really helping, as he thinks it is just fine to him.
I was so exhausted to keep tidying up his mess in the house.

Life is hard here, I didn't 'enjoy' life here at all.
I know I having certain level of depression and anxiety.
It is rather hard to control my emotion since I moved here.
Lately even worst, whenever I had something not going smoothly,
I easily get angry, and it follows with bad palpitation and tachycardia,
until I have difficulty in breathing.

I have no other choices, hubby likes Kulai, likes this superb 'peaceful' place,
which it is so inconvenient for me in anything.
Staying here just for living, but not life enjoying.
At this stage, I can only keep going as what I am having and facing now.
But doesn't mean that I agree and accept everything.

I know hubby is trying his best to love me and care of me, included mom.
But it doesn't cure me, it is only to comfort me either.

Hubby even asking me to consider for moving back to KL if I want.
I don't think this is a good solution.
I guaranteed, for sure this will lengthen our relationship with a big gap
and bringing back with bad marriage.

Part 50 ~ Bad January 2015

This is a bad beginning for me and mom in this very new year.

Mom is attacking by a sudden left foot swollen with severe pain.

She can't ambulate without assistance.

Of course she won't be able to perform her normal activity of daily living,

included going to toilet (for pee or poo), pants changing, getting down from bed, getting food when hungry.... etc.

It was started with mild 2-3 days before we heading to KL over the weekend (on 2/1/15).

Mom choose to keep the real situation whenever I called her during my trip in KL.

Until Sunday, her voice was obviously not the same.

OMG! She was in severe pain!!!!

The moment I reached home, it was really break my heart off and I was crying away inside my heart.

Her foot was really swollen like an elephant leg, warm to touch, and she was febrile.

With all the ineffective treatment and uncertain diagnosis (from few consultations),

Mom was diagnosed with Bacteria Infection.

Bringing whole packets of antibiotics and anti-inflammatory pills,

I took 3 days unpaid leave (aka urgent leaves) to take care mom at home.

Taking care of a dependant for day and night isn't that easy and quite exhausted.

Lucky hubby was with us all this while, helping me, fetching me, reassurance me.

Thank God, sister willing to fly over and took over the task, and I can go back to work as usual.

(From Sunday) Till now, today is day 6, improvement very minimal.

 

Can mom be alone again at home from Monday onwards?

Will she get better later?

Dear God, can you heal my mom? Pleaseeeeeeee...