Part 36 ~ Warning is Hurt

Day by day, month by month, we are getting busier and busier at work. Chatting is getting less, meet up also getting much lesser compare to those days. But, I do believe, we are matured enough to handle consequences of distant relationship.

I am trying my best to call you after work while driving home. No doubt phone bill also getting more expensive 30-40%. But what can I do? I do miss you always. I do need your care and concern. I do need your company while I am not at work. I also a normal woman.

Did I telling you that I'm not coming to Johor for coming July? Did I said postponed our wedding plan? If i don't, but why telling all this? So, for the same condition, am I supposed to get another man here to ease my loneliness and emptiness too?

May be you think this is a joke or even it does happened, just because of my fault? We are in distant relationship, this is a real fact! We can not live as same as other normal couple, who can meet up any time, can date any time, can spend their time together always. But we are not! I am holding myself very tough, I do miss you badly. But what can I do? I still need to be matured and independent. You can not be with me always at any time I need.

But I believe, after coming July, everything just will be fine. Meanwhile, I am trying my very best to meet you, to call you, to text you, hope to maintain our relationship. Even with our parents also I don't mind. What I am trying to do for this relationship not just an action, it is all sincerely from my heart. Little man, I love you, this is all I can say now, and always. I am looking forward for our marriage, our future, our family, including our puppy too.