I am not sure what can I wish or expect for the coming year in 2015?
Or should I back to my very earlier life principle ~ no expectation, no disappointment.
And it works well every time.
It makes me feel good, I believe life is always great if there is no disappointment.
However, it still can't stop me from having a little hope for the entire year, right?
There are three important entities in life which I won't forget,
Remember there is always something there to do, something to love and something to hope for.
Praying helps a lot to calm me down, I'm here to pray :
I hope to have happiness, good health and loves for myself and my loves one.
Happy New Year 2015!!
Time really flies. I'm being here in Kulai almost two months. Having a "wonderful" break. On the other hand, I'm jobless for almost two months too. Of course I'm happy to have a break during my settling down at a new environment. But when the "holiday" is getting prolonged, it will become meaningless, wasted and worrying me too. Jobless life became a burden to me.
I'm getting stressed and tensioned. I do not know what can I do now? I keep browsing all the recruitment websites, checking my mailbox, sending my CV and updating my personal working profile too. Every interview call also giving me a hope, unfortunately it ended up with false hope. It happened again and again.
Those days when I was I KL, never been having such upset and heart breaking while getting a job. I was so lucky to have jobs coming towards me. I wasn't worried at all about not getting a good job in KL. I'm getting promoted from one company to another. I'm really proud of myself. Those days, I was able to earn average 5-6K per month, with no house or car commitment, I was rather relaxed with my life.
But, it will be a history to me, and it hasn't happened to me again in Kulai, or even Johor. With such great working experiences of a few big companies, it became bullshit and rubbish when am asking for a job here. Those interviewers don't bother at all about my past, they just want a cheap labor.
I am feeling so heartache these two months of the job seeking process. I was someone who can earn almost 6K in KL, but I hardly get a job with just a 2K pay. I feel so useless here. I almost lost myself. I can't see my future. I really have no idea how can I survive for the coming days without a proper job. And I dare not dream to have a good career neither.
Worst comes to the worst, am I supposed to consider a job in Singapore? Will you support me?
I was unemployed since my previous job resignation on 23/7/14 in KL.
I know I'm gonna miss my career and let go a not-bad salary job in KL too.
But I know I have to be responsible for the decision I had made,
to marry him and permanently staying in Kulai for at least another 20-30 years if I am OK to survive such long duration.
This is an dramatic chance for me to start my new life in Kulai.
Even at this hour upon blogging right now,
I am still find myself very hard to adapt and accept what I am dealing with everyday.
I have no other better choice,
I just have to force myself for all the non-senses.
I know hubby is trying hard for me and my mom.
I can see it and I can feel it too.
I know hubby also trying his very best to assist me in everything, included getting me a job too.
I'm very stressed since day ONE I moved over, even now.
I had almost spent out majority of my flooding funds from my account.
Of course I was frustrated in everything here.
Hundreds of applications and emailed was sent for a job in Kulai and JB.
With my limited career exposure and unrelated working experiences,
it was pretty hard for me to get a job I want, or a job I can work well with my background.
Finally, God listened my prayers.
30/10/2014 ~ I received a call from her, Emily; HR from Ezyhealth.
She was clarifying my latest updates if still interested for a job.
Of course, I had gave her a big YES, and interview appointment made.
05/11/2014 ~ Job interview with Pauline, also my current manager.
I was happily spreading the good news to my hubby.
He was so supportive, hubby and mom were my supporters to accompany me for the interview with all the was from Kulai to City Square, which was about 37km away from home.
I wasn't sure if I was doing well during my interview.
Interviewer was trying to brain wash me and queried me if I can work in a small company, and if I can accept a job with almost 50% lower down salary compared to my previous jobs in KL.
I know I have no reason to say NO for the offer, I know I won't be as lucky as in KL any more.
But, interviewer has no immediate confirmation for the employment.
What else, I know, I have to wait for her answer as what my past jobs seeking experiences.
I dare not expect any good news from Ezyhealth.
I know I wasn't doing well during the session.
I know I might not be the one she wants.
And I know also I might be too expensive to be employed.
06/11/2014 ~ YES!!! Pauline called me!! AMEN!!!
She is offering me a job! Corporate Administration Executive.
Anyhow, I still need to be interviewed by her boss in Singapore and to discuss further on my salary too.
Although I am not really sure what's the job all about....
But I can just try my best to learn what I have to learn......
11/11/2014 ~ I stepped into their SG office, met the lady boss. I was glad that she doesn't teased me who willing to downgrade my employment level and my salary.
Without any further consideration, I accepted and signed the offer.
Employment effective with immediate effect. Finally I was employed!
Winnie Lam ~ You are entering to another level of life in JB.
What I can tell myself ~ just be patient!
Since I started my relationship with him,
this was my third time I went back Kuching with hubby.
After the situation during my ROM,
I don't expect any precious feeling from this trip.
As hubby said,
this trip was meant for Yuan Yuan ONE year old birthday celebration.
For the sake of respect towards FIL and SIL,
we should go back.
Two day one night, from Kulai to Kuching.
Although I had prepared myself,
but I never thought for such worst treats at her house!
No conversation with her, never mind.
No eye contact with her, never mind.
No response or reply from her, also never mind.
I will hold myself till end of the trip.
But, she can really treats me transparent!!!
Trying to close the gate at living room while I was still sitting at the gate edge!
She almost hurt me with the gate!
Trying to switch off air-con while I was still sitting at the living room (alone)!
She really can't see me there? Was I transparent?
Trying to grab/take away baby while I was cradling in the cradle!
She almost knock my toes by the cradle wheels!
You were good to me at the beginning stage.
Why all this relationship changed dramatically!!
Did I do something wrong?
Did I upset you?
As hubby told, she doesn't likes my mum!
So what!!!
She is my mum, now and ever!!
I won't throw my mum aside or ignore her after I got married.
Taking care of my mum is compulsory!
I didn't see anything goes wrong here!
She spoilt my ROM!
The most meaningful day of us!!!
And she spoilt it!!!
For this, I won't forget her, now and ever.
I can foresee,
it will be the same for my wedding dinner!
And wishing her all the best on how bad will she going to treat me!!!
