Part 37 ~ 对不起，我爱你！

我真的没什么好，

不会什么情趣，

不会什么情调，

也不会什么开玩笑。

你的女朋友我。。。

很现实，很传统，也很固执。

很多事情都不想去提，

也不想别人去提。。。

我遇见你，

我们相遇，相知，相爱，

我真的很想与你继续地走下去。

我不是要管你什么，

也不是要停止你做什么的，

可是，可能有时我给的意见往往好像是在泼你冷水，

可能我们的处事对事，观点都不一样，

我不会讲什么花言巧语，

我心想什么，我就讲什么。

可是，我还是爱你的！

如此，我可以讲的，《亲爱的，对不起，我爱你》

Part 36 ~ Warning is Hurt

Day by day, month by month, we are getting busier and busier at work. Chatting is getting less, meet up also getting much lesser compare to those days. But, I do believe, we are matured enough to handle consequences of distant relationship.

I am trying my best to call you after work while driving home. No doubt phone bill also getting more expensive 30-40%. But what can I do? I do miss you always. I do need your care and concern. I do need your company while I am not at work. I also a normal woman.

Did I telling you that I'm not coming to Johor for coming July? Did I said postponed our wedding plan? If i don't, but why telling all this? So, for the same condition, am I supposed to get another man here to ease my loneliness and emptiness too?

May be you think this is a joke or even it does happened, just because of my fault? We are in distant relationship, this is a real fact! We can not live as same as other normal couple, who can meet up any time, can date any time, can spend their time together always. But we are not! I am holding myself very tough, I do miss you badly. But what can I do? I still need to be matured and independent. You can not be with me always at any time I need.

But I believe, after coming July, everything just will be fine. Meanwhile, I am trying my very best to meet you, to call you, to text you, hope to maintain our relationship. Even with our parents also I don't mind. What I am trying to do for this relationship not just an action, it is all sincerely from my heart. Little man, I love you, this is all I can say now, and always. I am looking forward for our marriage, our future, our family, including our puppy too.

Part 35 ~ 心事

距离上一个 po，我已经一个月没在这与你聊心事了！
就连我们 whatsapp 的聊天频率也少了！

我知道我们近来上班越来越忙，
可是我无时无刻都有在想你。。。
真的。。。

为了我们的将来，我还得努力的工作！
为了我们的将来，我还得小心照顾我自己！

我相信，我们很快就可以在一起生活的！

Part 34 ～ 雨后彩虹

很开心，雷风暴雨终于过了！
谢谢你的谅解，谢谢你的体量！

我相信雨后真的有彩虹的，
这彩虹真的很美，
让我更加珍惜这段感情。

只是一年的时间，
记得等我啊，明年的七月，
我们就可以在一起生活了！

一起组织我们未来的小康之家，好吗？

Part 33 ～ 我很怕！

我们的怡保之旅，我还以为一切都是没问题的；
真的很抱歉，屋主突然改变主意；
不要接受我续约半年的要求，
硬硬要我签一年，要不然就要在两个星期内搬！
我真的很烦，我知道是我不好，
自己处理的不好！

对不起，对不起，我真的不是想要拖延时间，
我也很想快快搞定这里的事，
快快与你注册，搬过去古来，
与你开扩我们的小天地，开始新生活。




可是，就是因为那七个月！

我们展开了第一次世界大战！

你说：

我们可能太快。。。

我们可能不适合对方。。。

我们需要更多空间。。。






这一切的一切，真的让我很痛，很痛！！！
伤口撒盐，就是这种感觉吧！
我每天都在哭，日夜都在哭；
上班也没心情，脑袋老是重复想着你讲的话！

尤其是那句：就算你现在来，我也不要！我还没准备好！！

很痛，真的很痛，除了哭，我真的不知道要做什么好！！！
难道，我们真的抵制不了那七个月吗？
我们的感情真的酱脆弱吗？
我们真的没有机会吗？
你真的不要我吗？

那四天 ～ 我真的很难捱！！！

Part 32 ~ 我是哪种女人吗？

在脸书，看到这东东，好像很有趣的！！

《把男人引向成功的10种女人》

1、善解人意的女人 ～ 可是我很粗心大意的！往往都是不够细心！

2、心地善良的女人 ～ 我都是真心对待每一个人。

3、自然优美的女人 ～ 我不美，不会打扮，而且也很懒惰保养！希望他不会嫌我老哦！

4、聪慧的女人 ～ 我没什么脑的，可是，我选对了老公！

5、乐观自信的女人 ～ 我相信我的快乐和信心都是他给我的。

6、自重自爱的女人 ～ 我会乖乖的！可是 hor，我倒是没什么形象的喔！

7、会理财的女人 ～ 理财就不会啦，可是就是很吝啬的！哈哈哈哈！

8、讲究说话艺术的女人 ～ 我可以吗？我真的不怎样会说话的！

9、独立性强的女人 ～ 上班时一定要装强，可是我倒希望可以依赖老公的，可以吗？

10、有现代意识的女人 ～ 我还是很老土，很婆妈！

老公啊，你老婆我在你心目中是属于哪种女人呢？

Part 31 ~ 怡保吃透透

知道他很想游怡保。。。

拍拖以来，我也很想带他回怡保，

带他看看我出世的地方，

带他看看我成长的地方，

顺道可以带他见见我的家人。。。

其实怡保说大不大，说小不小；

真的很想一次过带他走透透，拍透透，

当然也不忘带他吃透透啊！

看见他吃到 high high 的样子，

我自己也 high 起来！

真的很希望他会喜欢我那一点点不怎样妥协的安排，

下回吧！一定还有下回的！！

我一定要带他继续吃透透！！

Part 30 ~ 温太太

Yeah! 我愿意！我愿意！

我终于可以开开心心幸福幸福地做你的温太太哦！

Part 29 ~ 谢谢你，我爱你！

我不是什么黄花闺女，我也不是什么单纯简单的女人！

可是，我很感动；

因为你，我感觉自己被爱被疼；

因为你，我感觉自己像公主般被保护！

我很幸福，我很开心！

因为这次的沙巴之旅，我真的看到你的真心，

我真的可以很放心很放心地把自己交给你！！

我会乖乖的给你爱给你疼！！

好好的做个幸福快乐的温太太！

我爱你，老公！！！

他说：22 May 2013

22 May 2013. 这一天，

我用戒指绑住你，

我会用我的一生

来好好爱你， 照顾你， 疼你。

他说：神山之旅

虽然上不了山顶。但很开心有你的陪伴。

他说：Gunung Gasing 走走记

很开心 sayang 都一直陪我拍照，爬山，吃喝玩乐。

期待我们的大日子到来。

Part 28 ~ 拍照拍拖

原来我们拍拖总是离不开相机，

每次出门总有相机陪伴在我们身边。



它记载着我们的每分每秒，

记录着我们的每一个笑容。

拍照也可以是那么甜蜜的！

Part 27 ~ 上石山

谢谢你的安排，谢谢你的到来，谢谢你的陪伴！

我们还有妈妈和 Andy 随行，

我们拍着拖背着相机一步一步地走上山，

走着拍着，聊下看下，

美丽的景色，还有那不错的天色。。。

开心就是这么简单！

幸福就是这么容易！

只因为有你！

他说：神山之旅

计划很久的爬神山之旅. 

在上两个月买下机票。

18 - 25 May 2013.

好期待和你一起到山顶。

4095 公尺

拍多多照片留念。

Part 26 ~ Nice Food

Finally I had brought you to these places for the nice food which I had planned earlier.

So happy that you really enjoy the food so much. 

Enjoy the great food at great place with my beloved one. Always the great one! I enjoyed the moment with you. Hope you enjoy my plan too.. 

This weekend, I really feel bad about your car window. Thanks so much for the Fei-Po. 

Part 25 ~ Happy Weekend

Really pretty happy and excited that you're coming to KL again after my birthday.
I know that was my fault to think crankily.
I really miss you from time to time, from day to day.

Although we do keep in touch via whatsapp and fb everyday, from morning till night. 
But do you know that when I have no updates from you, I feel so lost! 
Thinking here and there can not be avoided.

We're so far apart, only meet up may be once or twice per month. I really miss you so much. Wish to live with you everyday. Cook for you. Wait for you at home during your working days. Watch movies with you. Shopping with you when you not working.

Most important, I wanted to share every of my happiness and sadness with you in person. I want you to hug me when I happy and sad. When I stressed at work, I wish to see you when I reach home.... 

I'm serious on you too. I love you. 

他说：很开心的一个周末

很开心的一个周末，

虽然之前我们都很不愉快。

有女友的陪伴，

吃到好吃的鱼生，牛排，砂劳越面。

亲爱的，谢谢你。

Part 24 ～ 心里很不安

一直以来，有事无事的，

你都会与我分享你生活上的点点滴滴，

身边的每一个人，每一件事，每一个心情，

你都会与我分享！

可是昨天，我老是觉得你怪怪的，

你不能上网与我联线，

我不能怪你！

可是为什么你就是什么都没告诉我呢？

还要我一句一句地去问你！

答案才一项一项地揭晓。

以往，你与哪个朋友出去玩，

我都可以从 FB 上看到，

可是，这次就是什么都没有，

感觉上好像你不想给我知道什么的。。。

我就是不喜欢这种感觉！

哪种另我觉得很不安的感觉！！

Part 23 ：我们可爱吗？

我们可爱吗？

我们每个神情越来越像了，

难道这就是大家所讲的夫妻相？

他说：手表与故事

每一个你的手表，

都有你的故事。

这个手表是我们俩故事的开始。

Part 22 ~ 34 岁的生日

我终于相信雨后彩虹，
今年的生日真的很温馨很开心，
也觉得自己很幸福。

这几年都是一个人在外工作，
除了那些短讯或留言之外，
都是一个人平平淡淡的过着每一个生日，
如常的上班，如常的被工作压着，
没有生日礼物，没有生日蛋糕；
我想也快要忘记生日的感觉了！

今年我不止有妈妈的陪伴，
还有你的到来，
以及为我所准备的一切，
谢谢你！

礼物或蛋糕都不重要，
有你的陪伴，
我已心满意足了！！！

Part 21 ~ My Love Story Continue

This is my 3rd Casio wrist watch collection.. 

Each of it having its love story with different "he". 

It is same apply to this beautiful watch.

Dear, I hope u will be the last man who gifted me Casio watch.

Dear, I also wish that u will be the only man who keep giving me Casio watches as we continue our love stories.

他说：11 Jan 2013

11 Jan 2013 - 公司取消加班。
立刻通知你，
你买了车票南下古来。

很开心和你渡过开心的周末。
心血来潮，要买榴莲蛋糕吃，
顺便为你庆祝生日。

祝你生日快乐，天天开心。我爱你。

Part 20 - Broken Heart

It's passed 12 days after we last met during your birthday celebration. 

Distant relationship is no joke!
Especially when both loving each other so hard...

Every meet up, I am never expecting anything from you. 
Just a meet up, 
Just some precious time to spend together for us.

No activities, no programmes, no plans,
that is not a matter.
All I wish just a meet up. 

This trip ~ you brought me a hurtful message.
Your mama wanted you to get another girl friend.


From the day I was with you at Kulai,
I sensed it, 
I felt it too.
I know this day will come .

Part 19 - Hurtful Trip

I'm been looking forward for this December Southern Trip since months ago.

Because I can meet you after long gap of 45 days.
Because I can have precious time with you.
Because I can have some time for you with my mama.
Because I can bring mama to hang around some new places.



























But...
Everything was not as great & smooth as what I thought.
Everything just turned into a mess.
Everything just bother me so badly.
Everything just upet me and it was hurt.

I can't do anything....
I only can keep everything to myself.
I only can cry silently inside my heart.

I know you felt it.
I know you noticed it.
I know you feel bad too.

他说：双方家长，第一次见面

不知道会有什么火花呢？

会是小火花还是大烟花呢？

我想 ～ 应该没问题吧！

Part 18 - 八个小时

11月30号 ～ 星期五，

前几天因为知道自己将要与俩老相见，

真的很紧张！

上几次的见面都有你在场，这次不一样了，

因为我要自己一个人去面对了，

我说不紧张都是骗人的！

亲爱的，

我不是要埋怨或投诉你什么的，那是我自愿要陪他们的，

我也是希望。。。

大家可以趁着这个机会让大家了解彼此。

八个小时，说长不长，说短不短；

带他们去 PJ 吃小吃，在 MV 诳街血拼。

整个过程，

希望他们真的可以开开心心地度过！

他说：十一月二十一号

今天，我们一个月没见面了。

以为因为工作忙，会习惯。

还是很想你。

我讨厌那300km。

还有那两年。

你呢？

他说：当我们同在一起

当我们同在一起。

像十八岁一样。

Part 17 - Had Passed 3 Months

August 8, 2012 

A date 

which had changed her status from single to attached. 

A date 

which had reminded her that she has a Little Man 

who willing to love her, miss her, take care of her and protect her.

A date 

which had proven her that there is true love between Man and Woman.

A date 

which had told her that distant relationship is not an issue to her anymore.

A date 

which had shown her that she is deserved for better life.

A date 

which had awakening her that she can have her own family in future....

An important date ~ August 8, 2012

他说：对不起.....

今天病了，忙，

工作上出了问题。

又担心你。

在你有麻烦时我不能在你身边。

真的很急。

心情很坏。

对不起.....

Part 16 - Useless BF?

"Dear, when you need me, and I am not with you. I am useless BF!"

Please don't ever say this again! I know you will not be able to be with me all the time, especially when I in trouble or when I need someone's helping hand. 

From day 1 I accepted you for the distant relationship, I know I won't be able have my BF with me always. I know my BF won't be the first one to rescue me when I need him. I know my BF won't be able to do anything to ease me from anything.

But I still have friends... I am having helpful friends around. They are always there with me. Our friendship are not fake bullshit. I still can manage myself with their assistances.

Dear, I am alright here. Through it happened far away from you, but I will always let you be the first one to know everything about me, neither good or bad stuffs. And I do keep updating you for the outcome too. 

No worries dear. I can be myself here. 

Please don't ever says you are USELESS again! Else I won't layan u anymore!

Part 15 - Am I Old?

I was born in January 1979, and you were born in Dec 1979. I'm older than you for 11 months neh! 

People used to say, age is not a matter in any relationship. Don't you agree? Man of course not mind to have younger wife, but how about woman? Do they really don't mind to have young husband too? 

Emmmm..... I don't think so. Sometimes I am quite particular about my look. Staring at our couple pictures, I always ask myself, "am I looked old when standing next to you?" 

Although I used to have some compliments saying that I looked like mid 20-ish or late 20-ish, but I'm still worry. 

Woman well known to get old faster than man, especially after give birth to baby. And I no longer your young, sweet, cute and pretty sayamg ler... 

But I don't care, I know you will always here for me! ^0^

他说：她的母亲

第一次见她的母亲。

有点紧张。

她说过，她会带着她母亲。

不管到哪里都一样。

希望我可以接受。

拍拖也带着妈妈。

让我觉得很好笑。

左手牵我的手，右手牵着妈妈的手。

一开始很担心她妈妈不接受我。

我不太懂得讨好长辈。

不会说好话。

更是一个平凡的打工仔。

真不懂她母亲会不会反对我们在一起。

但她母亲就像她那么友善，那么热情。

应该是说她像她妈妈。

她让我很清楚的看到。

妈妈是她的一切。

我想说，我会好好对待你母亲。

我也知道你也会好好待我家人。

孝顺的孩子，心低都不坏。

Part 14 - Family & Friends

Relationship is not about you and me. It involved our families, and our friends. We are still baba mama child. We need them same as they need us too. Building our own family doesn't mean to leave them aside. But rather get our family to grow bigger, merrier and happier. 

We are not the perfect person. But I do believed our imperfection is just right to complete each other in order for us to go further.

I will try my best to be with each other through good times or bad. We used to say, relationship is all about meeting the right person to be your life partner. But I have another concept that relationship is to create a sparks between two different individuals to live together. 

Although we are far apart and wouldn't be managed to meet each other as frequent as we wish. As I understand, relationship is not count by miles but by how much love we have in each other to stay and build the relationship. 

The day will come. Stay tuned dear.... Nothing will stop us from moving further, as we are truly wanted to be together. 

God will always bless us for a brighter tomorrow.

Part 13 - Things got tighten up

New job no longer new any more. Honeymoon of the job has came to the end though. I am getting more busy and tighten up with the busy and heavy tasks on my daily basis. Burdens and responsibilities are getting heavier on my shoulders. 

It has added more challenge against our relationship. Besides distant, busy working schedule. Holding double tasks is not a joke. Stress mentally, exhausted physically, lack of quality rest at night is the worst. 

I am getting less motivation for everything. I am getting less personal time for workout. I am getting less energy for moving further. It sounds serious to me. 

And boss had promised, it will be coming to the end after two months. I really hope that night duty tasks will be reconsidered for our sake of goodness. 

It made me hard to arrange time for our meet up. I won't be shaking bumps at home at every weekend like others. I need to be on duty for every weekends and public holidays.

Fortunately, you're understanding and caring. I still can feel your love, your care, your concerns and your worries through the air. I had promised myself, won't get myself down. I will stay strong and tough, I will take care of myself.... because